It's been 13 weeks since my emergency surgery and i'm sad to say i'm now in pain on both sides of my chest, I'm also a little worried I have another infection in my left side! If it doesn't go down and stop itching internally i'll have to take myself of to hospital again! My right side that is stuck to my chest wall, drives me insane, mainly at night, it's just agony and keeps me awake, and there is nothing they can do until I have my reconctructive surgery 2019. I am going to phone Macmillan Cancer though and see if there are any therapies I can try to help alleviate some of the pain!
I went back to work about ten weeks ago for a few weeks, but the stress got the better of me and i've been off ever since with depression and anxiety. Being made redundant hasn't helped either, very bad timing for me personally. I got told my job was at risk the day after I went off sick back in February. Sadly most of Finance in Europe has been centralised to India and my last day is 29/06/2018, I loved my job there pre the takeover and thought it was a job for life, I will miss all my colleagues too. We have a triple leaving doo coming up, that should be a good night!
I had a fabulous holiday in Turkey, and already need another holiday! Sarah thanks for a great week, fancy going again end of July haha! Next time though, I need to try wearing flight socks, as I had swollen knees, ankles and feet all week, in the hope that that is my problem and not all the walking we did too! But then again they were slightly swollen before we flew.
I did another Cancer Charity Fashion show, that didn't help, but all I was doing was changing outfits and walking around, it's so not fair! Made some new friends that night too. Thanks for a great night ladies and gents.
I still can't kneel down on my right knee either and it's been 23 weeks since that surgery, can see me having a new half knee sooner than expected at this rate!
I'm going to reluctantly try swimming as excercise, as everything else I do causes pain and inflamation on all my joints. Hoping I can still do dance along with the swimming though. Hoping the swimming will help me lose some of this 3.7 stone I need to lose to get back where I was 2 years ago before cancer medication!
My Mental Helath isn't great, but must be improving as I wouldn't have done the fashion show or even considered swimming last month. I was in a very bad place and didn't want to live. I hate feeling that way after I've survived cancer, but I couldn't and can't control how I feel! I feel really bad as many friends new and old have lost their lives to this terrble disease, even today I've had sad news that someone has passed away due to cancer!
Life's a bitch!
