3 weeks post surgery

It's been 3 weeks since my emergency surgery and I've healed well, I'm still in a bit of pain but no worse than my right side which is stuck to my breast bone. I will continue to massage as that helps, but I could do with a longer massage every day to help. My hands and wrists end up aching, it's harder to massage your own chest than you'd think. No rude boob comments please I'm flat and have no nipples.

I'm back to work tomorrow so I've been trying clothes on to see what looks ok now I'm flat. Lots of my dresses have breast darts in them, so until I can bare to wear a bra with my knitted Knockers I can't wear them.

Knitted Knockers I hear you laugh, but I love them, so much better than chicken fillets (prothesis)  they are so light, look just as good and wash well too. I have just received my aqua ones ready for my holiday in May to Turkey.

I still can't kneel down on my right knee either and it's been 13 weeks since that surgery, hope I can soon, I have so much gardening to catch up on when spring finally arrives.

My mental health has had a little improvement with my new medication, hoping  getting out and about again helps even more. Being completely flat hasn't helped at all though, but I keep telling myself I'm alive and that's all that matters!

Thank you Mom, Dad, Lynda and Andy for my flowers  Xxxx

Another surgery!

Can you believe it, I had to drive myself to A&E 10 days ago, in agony and scared. My remaining implant had doubled in size. I ended up being admitted to hospital and put on IV antibiotics. 3 days later I went into surgery, they removed 1 pint of puss /infection and my implant.

I've been home 4 days now. Pain is improving slowly. Can't lift or drive for 2 weeks, so already fed up. Fed up of being stuck indoors, think I've had my fair share of that! 

Due to the snow I removed my drain myself 🙊 I looked on you tube how to do it, I had surgical wipes and it was causing me pain, so I thought sod it and it was no longer needed. I've had enough of them in the last 3 years, and always watched them being removed and it's easy enough. It made me feel a bit queasy for 5 minutes, but the relief after was so worth it. 

My head is in a bad place at the moment, I feel like I'm mourning my boobs for the first time in 3 years now I'm fully flat, but will see how I feel once I'm recovered from this surgery. Once again I have a lot of thinking to do, do I carry on with reconstruction or give in and stay flat. Either way I have at least one more surgery, to either neaten up my skin flaps if staying flat or the TRAM/DIEP flap surgery if I decide to use my tummy for new boobs. 

Hope you've all enjoyed the snow, I had some lovely views from my hospital window and amazing snow drifts blocking most roads in the village.

Thank you Jen for visiting me and my gifts, thank you Angie, Frank & Tim for everything you've done for me, visits, transport etc. Thank you Mom and Barry for your visit and my flowers.

Have a good week all and thank you for still following my journey . xx

Lost count of how many canullas I had fitted in there this time! 

Drain removed

Finally pain free

Drain in the fire

Never had a canulla on my little finger before!

IV antibiotics 

MISERY

Thank you Jen for my chocs and strawberries. Xxx

And yummy hot chox

Post surgery

Thank you Mom and Barry for my flowers xxx

Snow drifts in Rutland UK