AJ's Cancer Journey & Chronic Illness: Chemo 3 day 7

Chemo 3 Day 7

Well it's been one hell of a ride this week, really not been well with all the side effects. I was hoping they got easier but I was so wrong. So I'm halfway through chemotherapy and so glad to see the back of that drug. Hoping the new chemo drug will be kinder to me. I've had all the usual side effects plus even worse constipation, bloating, acid reflux and now mouth ulcers, only a couple mind you but they're blinking sore. Last chemo it was Day 8 before I managed a No.2 this time it was Day 6 in the middle of the night, buy boy did it feel good! Think the prunes, apricots and liquorice helped along with some new medication from my GP, now I'm little miss farty pants! So day 6 and one No.2 down only five to go and I will have my belly back to normal.

I'm injecting twice a day again at the moment, think I've got the hang of it now and I'm not hurting myself so much, just need the bruising to go, mind you it's a guide as to where I went yesterday...anyone for a game of join the dots! My thrombus seems to be easing a little, I've managed to drop my pain medication down which is great news. The sooner the better, then I can stop injecting blood thinners.

So The C Word aired on BBC1 on Sunday and Yes I watched. For those of you that don't know it is a true story about the amazing Lisa Lynch's journey with the big C. I would have watched it cancer or no cancer, I love Sheridan Smith and everything she does. It was a very well done portrayal and Sheridan I salute you.

I had a break down earlier this week couldn't stop crying for hours on and off, but it was needed. I've been so strong and confident through this whole journey so far and proud of myself and I will carry on that way. But we all break sometimes, I think it was a mix of everything all coming together at once. I've missed my Mom being here after chemo this time, My niece was 17 and I missed all the birthday celebrations. Living so far from family is hard especially when you're not well. Plus I've not had many visitors this time either, doesn't help living out in the sticks though. I just felt so alone but I know I'm not, I can't explain it. But please if you know someone who is having a bad time please talk to them even if it's just hello, you won't believe the difference it can make to someone. Anyway today I managed to get dressed for the first time this week and hobble over the road to vote...oh the joys! Thank you to Angie for the cream cakes and treats, Thank you to Jan for the chat and laughter. Thank you to work for letting me work from home and stay sane. Thank you to my family for being at the other end of the phone. Cancer I'm coming to get YOU!